Three month back to work countdown

I've spoken before about wanting to make the most of my maternity leave and to enjoy every moment with my little man as we will never have this time again.

It's been hard, ever since reaching the midway point, to switch off the working mummy part of my brain. As soon as it came to visiting nurseries and planning the details of going back to work, it's been there at the back of my mind most of the time.

Hubs has just left to go back to work in Leeds on a project that ends in a couple of months, after having two weeks at home helping me when I had food poisoning and then two weeks holiday. Coupled with the fact I'm going into work tomorrow for a KIT training day, and I can't help but be aware that I have just three months left.

For me, having a baby doesn't change you - it adds to you. Sure, you can't just do things on a whim because you have someone else to think about but I've never been that spontaneous (although my last tattoo in part was a reminder that it's ok to be now and then). 

You still have the same interests, just less time for them but you can squeeze them in, you still like the same things. I very much love my job and I've worked hard to get to where I am so I have no doubt I will enjoy bring back at my desk. It's just there's a new part of me, a big new addition to my thoughts and feelings, called Ethan. 

I can't help but wonder what it'll be like to have to be the old and new me at the same time.

These next three months are precious to me and they're also my favourite time of year. I want to take Ethan out for walks through the fallen leaves, I want to get him dressed up for Halloween. I want to take him swimming (I just know he's going to love it). Don't even get me started on Christmas! I want to take hundreds of photos and jus appreciate every little giggle, smile, cry and milestone.

It's about making memories that I can take with me so no matter how many meetings or deadlines I have in a day, there's always time for my little man.